With Me

Today God blessed me with a conversation with a friend from school. I have been crying out from a place of stress, angst, and heaviness. I've been crying out for relief. 2 things that came out of this conversation: 1) I procrastinate, and that's why I am feeling so stressed out. 2) Talking opens the door to relief because I can face and address issues I have.

This converstaion was wonderful because I saw how I struggle to be myself when I'm under pressure or feeling stress. And I do not want to live in those feelings anymore. God knows. Oh how He knows how crazy I feel and sad and wheighed down. That is why I feel so blessed that He would answer my cries. He does not want me to be in this place either. And in a way, I know He loves me enough to point out my flaws so He can in a sense rescue me from myself. I am causing harm to myself. But He loves me so much that He wants me to learn to come out of it.

That's why I feel so loved by God right now. He is present with me, He is my Everpresent Help. He is my source of teaching, understanding, and revelation and growth. Because He loves me, He answers me pleas, my cries, and gives me the tools to move forward and grow and change.

May this be testimony, in one small way, of the way God loves, speaks to, lives with and among and for an in the lives and days of His children. In very intricate, integrated ways that weave into our detailed issues. I love Him so much.

God, thank you for being so good and so faithful!! I love you!